So I've been thinking...

Yes you read correctly, I have used my noggin, hehe. I'd like to think of a blog as an outlet to vent, express feelings, happy or frustration, and sort of like an online diary. No one probably reads this anyway, however, if you do, these are my thoughts, opinions and daily devotions :)

Soo...as many people know I am getting married in July. Yay :) And I could be feeling overwhelmed, stressed, easily irritated or everything silimiar to the sorts, but is it just me or does the SECOND question that comes out of peoples' mouth (after when is the date, again?) So how long are ya'll gonna wait to start a family? aggravate the living daylights out of me. Sometimes I ponder and think "What's a good answer?" Why are you concerned?
The more I think about it, the more angry I become at the thought of having to defend yourself in a situation that is merely speculation. Why is the double standard not the norm? Why is age an issue? I often wonder is it a question of curiousity or judgement. Should one even be allowed to ask that?

I guess it just ruffles my feathers that if I say we don't want kids, we're selfish. If I want only one, I'm selfish. If I don't want more than two because 3 are too expensive, I'm selfish. Hmm. Harsh word. What makes that selfish? That I want to provide everything to my kids I can? I'd like to afford for them all to go to college. An ivy league if they choose. Proceed to med school babe that's fine with me. What's so wrong with loving and planning to travel? If we decide on one child, that ONE child will show me how to unconidtionally love with every part of my heart and soul. With 3, could we be able to show them the world or worry that we're being SELFISH for not spending that money on necessitities like clothes and food and saving for college tuition. Anyone can have a football team if that's what makes them proud. Why can't you have kids that belong to the football team and be just as proud sitting in the bleachers admiring all they can do? It has nothing to do with materialism.
Why do we patronize people such as Octomom, The Duggars and Kate Gosselin, yet we as regular people in society are expected to "have as many as God allows".
Why we do idolize the glamourous and fabulous Carrie Bradshaw, strive to be just like her, and yet a woman who actually believes in succeeding in NYC and chooses to be a single 40-something year old will never know what it feels like to live life to the fullest? Only cynics would say that. And for that matter how do you know what you're missing if you've never done it?
I guess, in theory, I'm tired of the double standard, egotystical stereotype that comes along with that question and needed to brush it off my chest. Some may not agree, but I'd like to think of myself as a tremendously selfless person who just wants to live the most rewarding and fulfilling life, however I choose to do that. I absolutely adore children (I'd hope so since I love my 6 year old students like they're my own.) and for the record, yes we want them, we don't know when or how many. See there....had to put up a defense to "tell" society you can relax, another human will be bred onto this Earth. Because that's what you were concerned about, right??!

I need a patio, a drank and some good friends this afternoon!! Have a great weekend :))